Well, I’m in the bed, again. The sky is blue, and the air is balmy, especially for February here in the mountains of
. I would love to pull on my hikers, throw on a
wind breaker, put a sweater and coat on my Happy Dog, and head outside. A nice walk down the hill sounds like a dream
to me. Virginia
I’m very blessed, however, because I know this is temporary. I’m on medication that is helping me, and by the time the week is out, I should (I hope) be out of bed and slowly be on my way.
I think that I know why I’m “laid up,” as we say in the hills. I have an inflammation in my right hip. At least I hope it is only inflamed, kind of like an arthritis attack, because of a fall I had two months ago. It seems like it was only the other day that I could fall, get up, and just keep on going, but that was twenty years ago. I used to joke, “when I fall, I just bounce.” Not any more. When I fall, I leave a hole in the ground, and I’m still in the hole.
It may seem as though I’m depressed, but I’m not. This is one of those learning experiences. Do I focus on what I don’t have? Or do I recognize the blessings that I do have? I’m not alone. I have my family, who can’t do enough for me. If I neglect myself, by not requesting help in my needs, whether my need is medicine, or my diabetes testing supplies, or food or drink or just an arm to hold me up so that I can go to the bathroom, someone is always near to help me.
It is a humbling experience, just experiencing how much they love me. Their love for me is selfless, a precious gift, which reminds me just how much God also loves me. They are God’s perfect gift, that is as obvious to me as one of the beautiful sunsets that I believe He provides to delight my soul. You might say that my family is the delight of my soul.
I have the loveliest daughters, funny and wise, beautiful inside and out, unselfish, and the joy of my heart. My husband is tender and kind. His love for me is expressed in unusual ways. He has taken a reader, which he had given me for my birthday, and he has expanded it so that I can do so much more, like downloading more e-books and reading the news, like the major news-hound I am. It’s amazing to me. He is so brilliant, but his heart is still humble and wise, as he does all these things that make life easier for me.
You see, I am slowly losing my sight. As a result, I cannot read a regular book, and I LOVE to read! I must have a light behind the letters, or I cannot see them very well. So, he just redesigned the whole thing. Now, I can go to Amazon or Barns & Noble and buy books that I love to read. He is so wonderful.
I wonder. If I were busy, busy, busy, would I notice just how blue the sky is through my window, as I write to you? Would I take delight in the stars, in sunrises and sunsets? Would I see just how much my husband and daughters cherish me? Would I take for granted every breath I take, or the steps that I am able to take just to get a glass of water for myself? If I were able, would I take the time to consider the people who don’t have what God has given to me? Would I understand your pain, as I think of you, my brothers and sisters, who may be struggling to see the blessings, within your own life? Would I take a moment to pray for you, as I am now? Would I be too busy to really see? Or feel? Or understand? If I were a hurried, worried person, who believed that I gave every blessing to myself, would I appreciate every blessing that God has given to me?
So, I thank God, right now, for every breath, for every step, for laughter, in spite of my tribulations. I thank Him for my medicines. I thank Him for my diabetes, because I understand what you go through. I thank God for my trigeminal neuralgia, and for the medications which erase my pain. I thank God for the chemist who designed the drugs, and for the Pharmaceutical Companies who provide the drugs which give me a quality of life that I would not have without them. For all the things and people that I used to take for granted, I thank God right now. He is a good God. He is a sweet God, a generous God, gentle, kind and merciful, and I praise Him right now.
And then, I thank God for the little things: a warm bed, when it is cold; cool sheets when it is hot – all those little things that we forget, sometimes, that God provides for us, too. I thank Him for my little dog, Happy Dog. For the fourteen years that God has given me with you, dear Happy Dog, I thank Him for each day, and all the years that you have blessed my life. What a joy you have been. I love you Happy Dog. I never dreamed that I could have a love like yours.
Dear Heavenly Father, I know that every heart beat is a gift from You. I know that You are my provider, my friend, and my Savior. I know that all the things that I should remember, and I have forgotten, are also Your gifts to me. And, Lord, for those who read this, I pray for all the grace they can hold, that they may know You. And if they are busy, may they stop and know that those busy times are a gift from You, too. And, Lord, for those of us who are laid up, may we realize our blessings, and may we thank You for them too. Thank You, Lord, and to You be the praise, the honor, and the glory, forever.
A brief update: I was rushed to urgent care yesterday. I met a very kind doctor. Gosh they are young these days! I discovered that I do have arthritis in my hips, particularly my right hip. To give me freedom of movement, I have been given a prescription of lidocaine, which is a gel patch which does what your dentist does when he anesthetizes your mouth. It will numb the pain while I increase gentle stretching exercises and give my glucosamine time to help build up the cartilage in my joints. This requires a lot of me. It’s not magic, but then is anything worth doing magic? Or should it be? I will keep you all informed as to my progress. God be with you!